Looking back.

Jun. 05, 2011

So reading back a few entries....
I can't believe it took me this long to see that Jason never felt the same way about me. I'm just finding clarity on my past relationships. Like with Chris, I feel like I can forgive my sweet ex-husband. After all he let me go live my life because I was so unhappy with him and he was holding me back. He used to always ask me and I would lie and tell him I was fine when in reality our marriage was killing me. Now there's Tommy in the picture and he's shy and quiet but at least Tommy and I have way more interests. Like, that concert! That was a dream come true for me. That was probably something I'd day dream about and shrug off because it'd never happen. Wow...hmm. And if I go to san diego next week and possibly drive to arizona I might see Chris. What would I say to him? Would he even talk to me? I do want to talk to him... I mean that's not even a question in my mind. I just don't know what I would say. "Thank you" or "I'm sorry" or "I wish you the best" and a small naughty part of me would wonder if he's still attracted to me. Heh.

Anyways...